thejoyproject40

Over the past year of counting blessings it seems that my lens has changed significantly.

I currently find myself in a very hearty season.

A season full of beauty, full of commitments, full of joy,

full of grief, full of why's and full of wonder .

This type of season usually sends me into a spin as I try to manage, control and orchestrate in an attempt to appear as though I have it all together when I am actually freaking out on the inside that everyone is going to KNOW that I am really an overcommitted, overemotional Hot Mess.

And while that can be true, it is also true that in the fullness of this season,

I am learning a lot about trusting God and believing His word.

I am slowly becoming more secure in who He says I am.
I am learning that He is everywhere.
And I am at my best when I focus on Him.
I want to see and be changed.

I am also finding it easier and more satisfying to express gratitude for the hard stuff and the why's?

The hard and why stuff is ever present right now and 

there are no easy answers to the pain and suffering. 

And perhaps the hard and why stuff is what keeps leading me back into thanksgiving,
back to love and back to acceptance.

Joy is a choice.

A choice expressed most abundantly when I trust and I believe and I move knowing that

 He has me right

 where He wants me. 

His purpose. His plan.
His love expressed through me.
Even when it is hard and the answers are few.

Thanks be to God.

•  little boys who are growing up
• celebrating 7
• my sweet friend who lives hope and inspires my walk
• praying for full, whole miracles
• knowing that He hears and answers according to His sovereign plan
• pink ribbons
• girl's day out
• field trips
• rain, rain, rain
• sameness